A shattered soul (William x reader)- Chapter 1-4

Chapter 1:

William looked over at the human world. All of them happy people living there lives. A sigh escaped from his mouth, not to be missed by the one person he didn’t want to be around right now, Grell. Grell was his partner for this job, which didn’t excite him very much.
“You miss her don’t you?” Grell asked. For once in his life, Grell was almost quite. William didn’t respond, he just kept looking at the city. “I know I do. I don’t know how your managing” William looked at the red haired man. He had to admit that he wasn’t doing well at all. She was the one person that made him smile, actually smile. It hit him hard when she went. William felt a lump grow in his throat. He turned away from the human world. This was his first job in the field he had been on since it happened. He was scared to go on this job, and he had every right to be. He couldn’t save her. As much as he tried he couldn’t save her. The worst bit wasn’t even her dying, it was the fact that he didn’t die along side her. It was too soon and she was too young. Of course William blames his self, even with all the reassurance that it wasn’t. That’s the thing though isn’t it, you often do blame yourself when you lose someone close to you. Her smile and face haunts his mind. Oh the pain it caused him now. But to think, before she died William had felt true happiness for the first time. She gave him the happiness only for it to be ripped from him.
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“So these are this years new recruits?” William asked. He got an answer and looked at them all. Most were men but a few were female. Everyone looked so proper and formal. Everyone except one. A girl of about (height) with (h/c) hair. She has the biggest grin on her face ever. This of course was (y/n). She wasn’t at all formal. Her tie was extremely loose, her top few buttons were undone and her jacket sleeves were rolled up. William pushed his glasses up his face as he walked to her. The grin she had slowly faded away as he looked at her. He buttoned up her top buttons, tightened her tie and unrolled her sleeves.
“If you are to pass these exams you are to behave accordingly. Sloppy behavior will not be tolerated” William said in a serious matter. Everything bright and chirpy about (y/n) seemed to be gone, well… more like hidden. Inside she was buzzing. She was finally getting her chance to be a reaper. William gave the lecture about what it means to be a reaper and how important it is to make sure there are no mistakes. (Y/n) was listening but couldn’t grasp onto a word he said.
“Does any body have any questions?” He asked. A few people put their hands up and (y/n) was one of them. William answered all questions smoothly and then it got to (y/n).
“Mr. Spears. Can you tell me why we are here?” She asked. People looked at her strangely. Her tie was loose again and the top buttons of her shirt undone.
“We are here to learn all the information you will need to know before you become a reaper” William answered.
“Yes I know that bit, but are we here? As in why aren’t we having a look around and seeing people work and leaning that way” (y/n) had an extremely innocent look about her face. William closed his eyes and pushed his glasses up. “I know id certainly benefit from watching people work.” Some of the other students started to agree with her.
“Miss (l/n). I have come to the conclusion that you are going to be a trouble maker. However, your views do have some good points backing them up, so if you would like to come with me I will show you some reapers working.” William said. (Y/n) was so excited she was almost shaking.

She trailed behind William as he lead the group through some corridors. They came to a halt, looking over a balcony at a load of people do paperwork.
“I am unable to show you some reapers actually out in the field due to the fact that you are all new recruits, however I am happy to show you these reapers.” (Y/n)’so face went blank of emotion as William spoke these words. Was this all she was going to be doing? No she was made for more than this.
“Is that it?” She spoke with verbal diarrhea. She didn’t want to speak up, but when she did, she instantly regretted it. William explained to her personally everything there is to being a reaper and her smile came back. This was going to be a job she really enjoyed.

William looked over at the human world. All of them happy people living there lives. A sigh escaped from his mouth, not to be missed by the one person he didn’t want to be around right now, Grell. Grell was his partner for this job, which didn’t excite him very much.
“You miss her don’t you?” Grell asked. For once in his life, Grell was almost quite. William didn’t respond, he just kept looking at the city. “I know I do. I don’t know how your managing” William looked at the red haired man. He had to admit that he wasn’t doing well at all. She was the one person that made him smile, actually smile. It hit him hard when she went. William felt a lump grow in his throat. He turned away from the human world. This was his first job in the field he had been on since it happened. He was scared to go on this job, and he had every right to be. He couldn’t save her. As much as he tried he couldn’t save her. The worst bit wasn’t even her dying, it was the fact that he didn’t die along side her. It was too soon and she was too young. Of course William blames his self, even with all the reassurance that it wasn’t. That’s the thing though isn’t it, you often do blame yourself when you lose someone close to you. Her smile and face haunts his mind. Oh the pain it caused him now. But to think, before she died William had felt true happiness for the first time. She gave him the happiness only for it to be ripped from him.
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“So these are this years new recruits?” William asked. He got an answer and looked at them all. Most were men but a few were female. Everyone looked so proper and formal. Everyone except one. A girl of about (height) with (h/c) hair. She has the biggest grin on her face ever. This of course was (y/n). She wasn’t at all formal. Her tie was extremely loose, her top few buttons were undone and her jacket sleeves were rolled up. William pushed his glasses up his face as he walked to her. The grin she had slowly faded away as he looked at her. He buttoned up her top buttons, tightened her tie and unrolled her sleeves.
“If you are to pass these exams you are to behave accordingly. Sloppy behavior will not be tolerated” William said in a serious matter. Everything bright and chirpy about (y/n) seemed to be gone, well… more like hidden. Inside she was buzzing. She was finally getting her chance to be a reaper. William gave the lecture about what it means to be a reaper and how important it is to make sure there are no mistakes. (Y/n) was listening but couldn’t grasp onto a word he said.
“Does any body have any questions?” He asked. A few people put their hands up and (y/n) was one of them. William answered all questions smoothly and then it got to (y/n).
“Mr. Spears. Can you tell me why we are here?” She asked. People looked at her strangely. Her tie was loose again and the top buttons of her shirt undone.
“We are here to learn all the information you will need to know before you become a reaper” William answered.
“Yes I know that bit, but are we here? As in why aren’t we having a look around and seeing people work and leaning that way” (y/n) had an extremely innocent look about her face. William closed his eyes and pushed his glasses up. “I know id certainly benefit from watching people work.” Some of the other students started to agree with her.
“Miss (l/n). I have come to the conclusion that you are going to be a trouble maker. However, your views do have some good points backing them up, so if you would like to come with me I will show you some reapers working.” William said. (Y/n) was so excited she was almost shaking.

She trailed behind William as he lead the group through some corridors. They came to a halt, looking over a balcony at a load of people do paperwork.
“I am unable to show you some reapers actually out in the field due to the fact that you are all new recruits, however I am happy to show you these reapers.” (Y/n)’so face went blank of emotion as William spoke these words. Was this all she was going to be doing? No she was made for more than this.
“Is that it?” She spoke with verbal diarrhea. She didn’t want to speak up, but when she did, she instantly regretted it. William explained to her personally everything there is to being a reaper and her smile came back. This was going to be a job she really enjoyed.

Chapter 2

One more week until the final exam. You had done the practical and the written report, and the other one. You don’t remember what the other one was because you had made a friend called Ronald Knox. Probably not the best decision. Just before your exam you was drinking with him. You don’t remember anything from that day. You were about to be given your results from your exams from the higher ups. With you was William, which confused the heck out of you. You thought that it was meant to be another student.
“(y/n) (l/n) you got a double A in physical, a C in written exam and… What is this?” the higher up asked and passed the score to William.
“She was drunk while she did the ethics exam” William spoke plainly.
“She got a B in it. This would give her a B average overall, of course it is up to you whether she should resit the last exam. Just remember a B average qualifies her as a fully fledged reaper. However for this next task you will have to be her partner” Will sighed at the higher ups response. Why would he ever want to pair up with someone so stupid she showed up drunk to an exam?
“I say that her grades are fine” William said and looked at the you as you waited patiently. So William is your partner on your first job. He is not allowed to help you too much in it though.

A month later and you had observed a humans life. She was a young lady of 24 and she was due to die in a few moments. You got into position and then it happened. She started to have struggle breathing and collapsed. An asthma attack. She tried to get help but the people ignored her. This was hard on you. You believe that all life has meaning so the fact that you had to send her to the afterlife was hard. You looked at William and he nodded.  Jumping off of the roof top, you drew your trainee sickle and planted it into her chest. She seemed to struggle a little then her body went limp as you collected her soul. You stamped her as completed then went back to William grinning a grin that went right up to your ears. You stretched.
“So this is how its going to work. Your going to hand that in and then we can relax and get a coffee.” you told him. Before he could reject you had grabbed his hand and was dragging him back to HQ. You stopped. “Hey look, there is other teams in the area” You saw all the cinematic records.
“Coffee…” William said. You didn’t really let him have a chance to say no and you realized that.
“Look if you don’t want to have a coffee with me, you don’t have to. I know I wouldn’t want to if I had spent a month with me” You told him and started to walk away.
“Ill have a coffee with you, I need to discuss somethings about this job with you” William said and started to walk ahead of you.

You sat on a table opposite him. You had a lovely cappuccino and him a latte.
“So what did you want to discus?” You asked  loosening your tie. It was doing your head in being so tight and you didn’t want to be wearing it at all.
“You made a few mistakes which I think you could easily change to improve your performance” He said. He always spoke in the same serious tone, it made you shiver slightly. His tone and personality was so cold, you couldn’t help but wonder if he had a bad past that he didn’t want anyone to know about.
“Alright, do tell” You said and put your seat up on the chair next to you. William rose his eye brows and you removed them, “Sorry.”
“First of all I would suggest that when you collect the soul you quickly get out of sight of the public” William said then you were joined by a red haired women… er man.
“William oh how long its been” He spoke with a very flamboyant voice.
“Not long enough” Will spoke in a cold tone as he pried the red haired guy off of him.
“Oh are you on a date? I came here with Ronald but I saw you and knew I had to join you.”
“This isn’t a-” Will started and the guy was off to his friend.
“Will is on a date” He spoke rather loudly.
“Oh he pulled” The red haired’s blonde friend spoke smiling. “Damn shes hot.” He said.
“(Y/n), are you ready to leave?” William asked and you nodded.

William let you walk home by himself, he had to hand in the paperwork to the higher ups. He lived a couple of doors down from you. You opened your door and sighed. You had known that guy for over a month now and he hadn’t shown you a single emotion. You bounced down onto your bed and looked at the photographs next to it. There was a picture of your mother, in her youth standing happily next to your father at there wedding. Next to that was a picture of you and William. In the photograph Will was standing real proper and looking away from the camera, whereas you were stood puling a silly face with peace signs up. You smiled. That day was the day you got your results from your exams and you had the chance to become a fully fledged reaper. It was possibly the happiest day of your life so far.

Chapter 3

William sat at his desk doing paper work. He was waiting for word from the higher ups to see whether he could let (y/n) go on her first job as a fully fledged reaper. She ran in panting and sat on the chair. He looked at her and put his pen down.
“I haven’t heard word yet (y/n)” He said. You sighed.
“Well could I go with you on your next job?” You asked. He looked at you and then noticed you had a new death scythe. He hinted at the scythe and you showed him it.
“May i?” he asked and you nodded and handed it to him. “A Wakizashi. Why did you choose this as a death scythe?”
“I like the design and idea behind them. They are light and small and easy to wield. A katana was going to be my first choice because they are weapons that warriors wield but then I thought about it and it was either going to be a Wakizashi or a Tanto but I chose the Wakizashi” You explained.
“Fascinating” Will said. “You may come with me on my next job. Might I asked, why red?” He was referring to the sheaf and handle to the blade.
“I made friends with Grell and he suggested it” you shrugged. You didn’t think much of the colour but it did go well with the blade.

Will watched his victim. A 3 year old boy who was with his 7 year old sister. They were collecting flowers for their parents. Both were to lose there life today. You gritted your teeth knowing they were going to have to die. You swallowed hard which caught William’s attention.
“It’s just a job” He spoke. You looked at him. “There is no need for emotions here.” Your breath was shaky.
“How can you say that? There is going to be emotion for their parents. How do you think they are going to feel? How would you feel if it was your children that were about to die?” You teared up.
“I don’t have children, nor do i intend to in the future”  He said coldly standing up. “Its time.” You looked at the children. They stood up with the flowers and waved to their parents. Your heart broke. A carriage came flying around the corner, horse going crazy. The carriage flew off the road and went hurdling towards the children. You closed your eyes as it hit them. The mother screamed and they both went to the children. A guy climbed out of the upturned carriage, he had a few cuts on his face and a badly sprained leg. He got away lucky. Them children were on deaths door step. You and Will collected the souls quickly and got away, at which point you burst into tears.
“Too young” you said shakily.

You felt arms go around you and looked up to see William hugging you.
“Like I said before, it is just a job, emotions don’t need to get in the way. In this job you need to learn to leave emotions behind you when you come out onto the field because other wise it will just make the job unbearable for you” He told you.
“William T Spears are you showing affection towards me?” You giggled and he rolled away. He let go and turned away.
“I expect you at work by 8 am tomorrow morning, their is a lot of paperwork on your desk” William said and walked away. That seems more like the William T Spears you know. Cold and only caring about work. He seems a bit like your dad, though you knew your dad’s soft side very well and you were yet to see if William has a soft side.

William went home and thought about what (y/n) had said to him before the job.  “How would you feel if it was your children that were about to die?” Well how would he feel? He didn’t know. He hadn’t felt anything in such a long time. His response about not having children and him not attending to have any in the future was for a reason. Having children would mean finding love, and the one day possibly losing that love. That is something he doesn’t want to have to go through. Once, a very long time ago, he thought about getting with Grell. He is so glad that he didn’t, that moment could have possible ruined his life and he regrets ever thinking about it. Its hard for him to think that he got that desperate for love that he nearly turned to Grell. Now a days he doesn’t care much about that emotion. Love. Its just a four letter word to him, and yet its starting to rise up again and he doesn’t know why. Who does he like like that? Who has he fallen for? No one pops straight into his mind but it is still there. He was going to have to figure this out soon.

Chapter 4:

“The electromagnetic spectrum?” You asked. You were hanging out with your blonde friend, Ronald.
“Yeah i  need to know about it” He said and laid back on the chair, which he was currently sat on.
“Why? To impress that girl you’ve been checking out?” you giggled.
“Her names Amelia and shes very interested in physics” He said seriously. You looked at him.
“Okay but listen closely because i’m not going to repeat myself.” you told him and he sat forward to listen. “Theelectromagneticspectrumismadeupofdifferenttypesofwaves,thesewavesinorderareradio,microwaves,infrared,visiblelight,ultraviolet,xrayandGamma.Gammaistheshortestofthewavesandradioarethelongest” You said all in one breath. Ronald looked at you confused a little then he figured out what you said.
“Radio, micro, infrared, light, uv, xray and gamma, right. How am i going to remember that?” He asked.
“I remember it from Gamma to radio. I use the term Gay Xperts Usually Live In My Roof” You told him.
“What do Gay xperts got to do with that?”
“It doesn’t, i just remember it like that because its easier. I remember the first letters and then i can figure the rest out” You told him and he nodded and understood.

“(y/n) you haven’t finished your paper work” William spoke coldly as he walked past you and Ronald.
“I am taking a break” You said.
“This isn’t the time for your break, back to work” he went into his office and you sighed. You looked over at the mountain of paper work on your desk.
“I thought that you and William was an item?” Ronald was confused. You shook your head.
“No, 1) hes my boss and 2) i cant stand him, hes so annoying” You said. You had told Ronald and Grell about the child job and they took pity on you.
“Yeah but if you did like him you have a shot” Ronald said. You rose an eyebrow and went to sit at your desk.
“How?” you asked picking up the top sheet of the pile of paperwork.
“He showed you emotion” Ronald said, “hes never done that to anyone else. Not even Grell, and was his partner” You looked up at Ronald.
“Don’t kid yourself” You said and then got dug into your paper work.

*time skip till February 13th* 

You sat on your desk. You had finished all of your paper work for the week and you were sooo happy. Your red haired friend came in whispering to your blond haired friend. They were snickering and it was kind of annoying. Ronald left the room and Grell came towards you.
“Hello Grell” You said laying down on the desk kinda sexy like but not intentionally.
“(y/n)” he pulled up a chair and sat down. “You got a valentines” He pulled out a black rose, where was a note attached to it.
“Who is it from?” You sat up and took it. “To (y/n), meet me at (cafe name) tomorrow at 8 pm” Grell looked at you in awe. This was your first valentines.
“Does it not have a name attached?” Grell asked and you shook your head. He ripped it out of your hand and threw it in the bin “Don’t pay attention to it, it was a cheap present and probably means nothing!”
“What did you get your valentines-es?” You asked.
“Why? are you planning on buying someone something?” Grell asked you and your face went slightly red.
“I wanted to get someone a present to let them know they are my friend” You said.
“who?” Grell asked. You got up and left. ‘meet me at (cafe name) tomorrow at 8’ played in your mind. You would gratefully meet them there but who were you meeting? and why didn’t they ask you in person?

*lil time skip* 

You were waiting at (cafe name). It was 7:55pm and you was the only on there. It was quite dark and you was a bit tired. The door opened and you looked to see William. Was Will the one who sent you the rose?
“Hello Will” You said. He looked at you. The clock changed to 8. “Is it you i’m meeting?” you asked.
“I believe so.” He sat down.
“I think that rose was really sweet” You said smiling. He looked at you blankly.
“I got your rose… I thought it was Grell sending it, I nearly didn’t come” William said.
“I didn’t send you a rose. I was going to give you this” You went through your bag and pulled out a small box with (favorite chocolate) in it.
“I didn’t send you a rose either.” He took the the chocolate and looked at it.
“Have we been set up?” you asked.
“Looks like it. Ill walk you home. Thank you for the chocolate” Will said. You looked through the window and caught a glimpse of red.
“I found our culprits” You said and got up. You and Will walked out to the spot which you saw the red.
“Ronald Knox” “Grell Sutcliff” You and Will said in sync. They looked at the two of you.

“I am sorry for the inconvenience (y/n)” Will said as you came near your house.
“No its fine.” You smiled and you got to your door step, “Do you want to come in, I have some (alcohol) in the fridge” You said. He looked at you.
“I don’t think we should” William said.
“Oh come on Will, just one drink it is valentines day after all”  He sighed.
“Fine but just one” he said. You both went in and you got out the drinks. A lot of drinks later you were both really drunk. It was close to midnight. You grabbed yourself and Will another drink.
“Maybe you should stay the night” You passed him the bottle and your hands lightly touched. He took the bottle and looked at you.
“If you want me to” You sat next to him. You giggled a little and he grabbed your face and kissed you. You could taste the alcohol on his breath and he could taste it on yours. so many voices went through your head but you chose to ignore them as you kept kissing him.

The next morning you woke up with a banging head ache. You climbed out of your duvet to find yourself in nothing but your underwear.  You freaked out and covered yourself up. You don’t remember nothing from last night. You looked over to your right and your eyes widened as you saw William laid there. You lifted the duvet slightly to see William only in his boxers. The alarm went off which woke him up and you both went through pain. You turned it off quickly. You started to wish you remembered anything from last night.
“Good morning Will” You said, face fully red. You felt so exposed. He put his glasses on his face then looked you up and down before looking himself up and down.
“This is your fault” he said in his cold manner.
“gee thanks. What even happened last night? The last thing i remember was inviting you in.” You said.
“I don’t know, but because you invited me in its your fault.” You got up and blushed more. You pulled the duvet over yourself, completely forgetting hes only in his underwear aswell.
“Can we try and forget that we woke up together?” You said.
“Yes. i think that is the best way to go towards it. I expect you at work on time though” He said.
“Yes sir” you said and picked up some clothes an went to change in the bathroom.