The morning romance- day 5

Kyoya actually showed up today, I didn’t have to threaten him. I did a lot of thinking last night about Kyoya kissing me. That was my first kiss… ever. All I can think about how his lips felt against mine. How warm and full of love that kiss was. When I think about it, I can still feel it. What I want is… I want him to hold me in his arms and lay kisses on my lips. I want….. him to… love me. (a/n- sudden realisation that reader loves Kyoya) But… Oh who am I kidding. Of course I would fall for him. I’d have to be a fool not to. It’s human nature to fall in love. Like that old story goes: boy meets girl, boy falls in love with girl, boy gets girl.

Kyoya seems awkward today. I can’t admit that I like him now, not after yesterday. We were both quiet, and the more awkward the silence got, the more I wanted to kiss him and apologise. He looked at me. His face was slightly red.
‘(y/n). I want to apologise for yesterday. I shouldn’t have taken your first kiss like that.’ Kyoya said. My heart started to beat fast. I took his hand and leaned in towards him.
‘It’s quite alright’ I kissed his cheek and backed up. He blinked as he realised what just happened. He pushed his glasses up and composed himself.
‘Well, it is good to know where we stand.’ He spoke and sat down to work on something.

I don’t know where we stand though. I know that I like him, but does he like me back? He was the one who kissed me originally.
‘Are you going to sit down or not?’ Kyoya spoke. I sat down without question.
‘You say you know where we stand, but I don’t know where we stand.’ I sat there twiddling my thumbs because I was rather nervous right now. He looked at me. ‘I like you Kyoya. I am admitting that. It would be nice to know whether you liked me back or not.’ He put his hand to his forehead.
‘That is an intriguing notion. Perhaps I shall think about it. It could benefit me quite sufficiently to take you up on that.’ He said. I got up and shook my head.

‘It is up to you. I’m going to the toilet’ I walked out of the room. Once I was sure the door had shut I legged it down the halls of the school to get to a bathroom.  His comment kind of upset me. I just needed to let out how I felt. The way that comment came out, it was like he didn’t want to be with me for feelings, rather social standings and what not.

The time went by rather quickly and when I looked at the clock I was late for my lesson. Unfortunately I shared that lesson with some of the host club, who get rather concerned about me, and have done since me and Kyoya got close. I rushed to the lesson and walked in.
‘Sorry I am late sir’ I spoke and sat down. It was obvious I had been crying. My eyes were puffy still.

At the end of the lesson the twins came up to me. Hikaru was on my left and Kaoru was on my right.
‘Are you alright?” They asked in harmony. I nodded. Hikaru grabbed my chin lightly and turned my face to look at him.
‘You can tell us you know.” He spoke. Kaoru turned my face to look at him.
‘We want to help’ He said. I stood up.
‘Please don’t touch my face.’ I requested then left the room. I was muttering about Kyoya being stupid, only to bump into him. He looked at me with a look of annoyance. I broke down again and tears ran down my face quickly so I ran. I don’t think I am going to come to school next week.