A/n- this is a very depressing, dark chapter. Im sorry if it triggers you. Don’t read it if it gets too much for you
Kaoru’s Point of View:
I slept rather easily that night but the next morning I couldn’t move. I was so sore. Kyoya chuckled and got up. He was sore aswell but he’s not as much of a baby as I am. He helped me stand and we headed toward the bathroom for a shower. It helped a lot with the pain. You might say it was soothing.
Kyoya let out a cough and a sneeze then got out of the shower. He went to the bedroom and when I came in he was laid in bed holding his stomach. I guess hes sick? Me being stupid, I didn’t know what to do. I saw that he had some tablets in a draw. Painkillers.
“Have you taken anything?” I asked. I didn’t get an answer so I got him Painkillers. The box seemed new but out of the two trays of 16 there was only 2 left. I thought nothing of it and got the other two out. Kyoya took them without argument. He laid down saying he felt sick so I went to find him anti sickness tablets. I didn’t find any but did find a new pack of the Painkillers. I left them on the bed side cabinate for Kyoya to take later when these ones had worn off.
He started to shake and whine. I assumed that it was time for him to take more medicine but the pack of painkillers were empty. I had left him for 5 minutes, while I went to toilet.
“Kyoya, did you take all these?” He was pale, sweating and looked like he was about to be sick. “I’ll take that as a yes.” I grabbed my phone to call for an ambulance.
“Stop” he said quietly. He was really scaring me. I sat by him and laid him on his side then told him to sleep. He smelled really bad. “Don’t call an ambulance. They will contact my dad” Kyoya said weakly. Why didn’t he want his dad to know? I have never seen Kyoya so vulnerable before.
“Why did you do it?” I asked. He shook badly and was sick. I couldn’t bare to see him like this so I called an ambulance regardless to Kyoya’s begging me not to. “Hello, I need an ambulance.” Kyoya started to cry hearing me say this. I told them the location and what had happened.
The ambulance came quickly and I took Kyoya’s phone while they put him in the ambulance. I didn’t want to call his dad because obviously things weren’t right between them, so I called his sister.
“Hello, Fuyumi.” I said.
“Kyoya? What’s wrong?” She said back.
“I’m not Kyoya, I’m Kaoru. Can you get to the hospital? Kyoya overdosed and hes in a bad state” I said bluntly. Honestly, I’m not happy with him for doing it. Fuyumi made a noise of panic then hung up. I boarded the ambulance and held Kyoya’s hand.
“Who did you call?” He asked weakly. His eyes were praying that it wasn’t his mother or father
“Fuyumi” I said. He nodded and his eyes closed.
The hours of waiting were painful. Fuyumi had arrived, but neither of us were allowed in to see Kyoya. Panic had flooded her face and it got worse the longer we waited.
“I’m going to have to tell father” She said. I shook my head.
“Kyoya doesn’t want him to know.” I answered.
“He’s not heartless like what Kyoya thinks. He’ll come here and he will be worried sick” She said.
“Then don’t tell him. Kyoya has me and you worrying about him, he doesn’t need anyone else. Especially someone who severally dislikes him” I said. Fuyumi didn’t know how to respond to that.
The doctor came out and stood there.
“We had to completely empty his stomach, the pills he had have seriously damaged his insides, though he should be okay. Can one of you tell me why mr Ootori took so many pills?” The doctor asked. Fuyumi shook her head.
“He wasn’t feeling well so I gave him some to help him, but I didn’t know he’d already taken some. He said he hadn’t. I went to the bathroom for 5 minutes and came back and he’d taken a full pack. I don’t know his reasoning, but it was like he wanted to make himself ill” I said. That was the hardest thing so far.
The doctor nodded and the door behind me opened. I turned around.
“Mr Ootori, come this way please” The doctor spoke. I turned around to see Kyoya’s father. He didn’t seem pleased. I followed them quickly, and so did Fuyumi. “Yoshio, the boy tried to kill himself.” The doctor whispered in his ear. It wasn’t a quiet whisper, I heard it clearly. Kyoya’s father nodded and we entered the room with which Kyoya was asleep on the bed in. I brought in a chair for Fuyumi then got one for myself and held Kyoya’s hand tightly.
Yoshio Ootori glared at his unconcious son. It was unnerving and I don’t know why he just didn’t let his guard down and his feelings out. It was clear that he wanted to cry. It was clear that he wanted to sit down and hold his son close. It was clear he was struggling. But he didn’t let that guard down. The glare was frozen on Kyoya.
“He’ll always be a failure” Yoshio said, “He can’t even succeed at ending his life.” My mouth gaped open slightly and the man left the room. I laid my head on the bed and teared up.
“Yeah, he’s not heartless.” I said to Fuyumi. She was sat in shock and greif.
Kyoya woke up a few hours later, and sadly I was asleep when he did this.
Kyoya’s Point of View:
Something was on my hand. It felt nice. It felt soothing. I opened my eyes to see Kaoru asleep with his head laid on my hand, which his hand was clenched around. He is so cute. My eyes examined the room. Hospital. The only other one in the room was Fuyumi. My father obviously knew I was in here by now, its one of the hospitals which he runs. He probably wasn’t happy to see me in such a state.
I put my hand through Kaoru’s hair gently, and he started to stir. He opened his eyes and looked at me.
“You’re awake!” he said loudly, which woke Fuyumi from her sleeping state. His arms wrapped tightly around me and he started to cry.
“I’m sorry, Kaoru.” I whispered. He heard it and held me tighter. When I am at school, I act like my life is all together but in reality I am overly stressed about everything. I have to paint my picture perfectly to be what my father wants, but no matter what I do, I aren’t good enough for him.
“I was so worried that you weren’t going to wake up.” He said. I nodded. I wonder who he told about this.
“Dad knows” Fuyumi said, “he was dissapointed.”
“Figured” I said simply. I wasn’t in the mood to act like I cared right now. My arms wrapped around Kaoru and I held onto him like he was the only thing I had left in the world.
“Hey, I have to get home. I’ll come see you tomorrow, okay?” Fuyumi said and kissed my head, turning into a caring sister. I nodded.
Kaoru sat on the bed and cuddled me.
“I’m going to tell Hikaru, if that’s okay? He and Haruhi will probably come round to see you.” Kaoru said. My grip around him tightened slightly and I nodded. He kissed me gently. This is what I needed. I needed my boyfriend to love me even when I failed. I don’t see why he loves me any more, but I am glad that he does.
Kaoru’s Point of View:
Hikaru and Haruhi came like I had expected. Kyoya didn’t speak a word to them, I guess he only wanted me right now. I didn’t speak much either. The words that Mr Ootori said about Kyoya were playing around in my mind. ‘He’ll always be a failure.’ Kyoya isn’t a failure. He is the smartest and most handsome man I know. He’s obviously smarter than his father, who from my experience, isn’t very good at anything apart from neglecting his child.
“Kaoru? Are you alright?” Kyoya asked. I looked at him. Apparently, I had zoned out. Do you blame me? I was thinking about what that awful man said about my boyfriend. Kyoya put his hand on my cheek. “Hey, you zoned out again.” He said. I blinked.
“Sorry, I am just thinking.” I said. Hikaru was staring at me.
“What about?” Haruhi asked. I shook my head. Kyoya looked at my brother and his girlfriend.
“Excuse me.” I said and left. I noticed Kyoya’s face as I walked out. Worry. He shouldn’t be worried about me, it should be the other way round. The guy is in hospital- he should not be worrying about me.
Someone grabbed me as I walked to the canteen in the hospital.
“Kaoru, is he okay?” A voice spoke. I turned around to see Tamaki and I sighed deeply. He shouldn’t be here. I don’t think Kyoya would be happy if he had the full Host Club in his room making a racket. In all honesty, I think he only really wants me there.
“He’s fine” I said and bought myself a drink and got Kyoya one as well. Tamaki had Honey-Senpai and Mori-Senpai with him and they were looking at me like they were expecting me to tell them everything. “Who told you he was here?”
They all looked at each other.
“Hika-chan” Honey-Senpai said. I sighed and looked at Tamaki.
“Hikaru did” He said. I looked at Mori-Senpai to get confirmation that Hikaru had shared it to all of them. He nodded. A sigh escaped my mouth again and I led them to the room. I walked in and gave Kyoya the drink and a groan came from his mouth when he saw the remaining three members of the Host Club that weren’t already in the room.
“Hikaru told them.” I explained. He nodded and shot a glare at Hikaru. Hikaru hid behind Haruhi upon seeing the glare. The Club all made themselves at home and I was left without a chair. Kyoya shifted up and let me sit down.
The silence was awkward. No one knew what to say.
“So Kyoya,” Tamaki started, “Why did you do it?”
“Because” He answered. That wasn’t really much of an answer, but that’s what he said. That silence invaded the hospital room once again, more awkward than the last time.
“Kyo-chan, do you want a slice of cake?” Honey-Senpai said. Kyoya didn’t answer.
“Is there anything you want?” Haruhi said, “I can go get you something.” All the Host Club seemed to be in shock and panic because of what Kyoya did. I could see the annoyance grow on Kyoya’s face.
“If I’m perfectly honest, I want you all out apart from Kaoru” He said, his brow twitching as they were all asking him what he wants and needs and offering to do stuff for him. His words shocked everyone and nodded, but not one of them left. “Leave!” He snapped at them. His words were ice as he spoke to them. They rushed out in fear, leaving me alone with him.
“Sorry about that.” I said to him. He nodded and pulled me close by my waist.
“I did it because you got hurt because of me. I couldn’t live with myself knowing I had caused a bunch of homophobic men to beat you up. On top of that I’m just stressed.” He told me. I put my hand on his cheek.
“You didn’t cause me to get beaten up. If that was anyones fault, it’s Honey-Senpai’s” I told him and kissed him gently. “As for the stress, stop trying to be what your father wants you to be and just be yourself. The real you is much better than the worked up stressed you anyway.” I explained. He nodded. He started to speak my name, but I stopped him and pressed my lips up against his.
The kiss was amazing once he started to kiss back. His warm lips melted against mine like the mountain snow under the summer sun. His hands glided up my back making me shiver slightly with excitement. His touch, soft like a feather but stronger than that of a lion’s as he gripped onto me and pulled me close. Our gentle kiss turned into an intimate, intense moment that needed to be cherished forever. This kiss would have gone further had we not been in a hospital right now.
“I’ll be out of here by tonight, and back at school tomorrow.” He said. I nodded, though really I just wanted him to rest. I wanted to rest with him so we could cuddle and do maybe more. He smiled. “Thank you.” He said.
“I love you.” I spoke to him happily. He returned my statement with a peck on the cheek afterwards.
He was right, he got released that night. However, he got advised to stay in bed. Did I believe he would do that? No, I didn’t. Fuyumi was there when it was time for him to be discharged, and together we helped him get home.
“Want to stay the night, Kaoru?” Fuyumi asked. I shook my head, but honestly I did want to stay the night.
“I have to get back to Hikaru, thank you for the offer though.” I smiled and kissed Kyoya’s forehead before leaving.
When I got back home, it seemed empty, but it wasn’t. There was loud noises coming from upstairs, and so I didn’t go to my room. I went to the spare room and put the tv on loud enough to mask out the lewd noises of grunts, groans and moans. I think Hikaru must have heard the television, because not long after it started he was knocking on my door.
Hikaru’s appearance was not acceptable. His hair was messy, his lips were slightly swollen and he had a huge hickey on his neck. His shirt was all creased and not on properly. I’d hate to imagine what Haruhi looked like right now. Probably a lot worse.
“You know Ranka is going to kill you.” I laughed.
“Yoshio would kill you if he knew you and Kyoya did it.” He said. “Anyway, how is the shadow king?”
“He’s weak but at home. I think he’s just tired. He said he’ll be at school tomorrow.” I smiled. He nodded.
“I don’t think Haruhi will be walking in the morning.” He smirked. My face scrunched up as he added a little bit of unneeded information about how he was doing it with her.
“Are you coming in, or going back to your woman?” I asked. He looked down the hall as if he was debating which one he wanted to do. If I had stopped what he had but with Kyoya, and he asked me this i’d be shooting back to Kyoya.
“I wanna come in and talk to you, but I don’t want to keep Haruhi waiting.” He said. I nodded in understandment and pushed him down the corridor slightly.
“Go then” I smiled.